Thursday, May 18, 2017

Saying goodbye as an angel says hello to heaven

“I never wanted
To write these words down for you…” 
– Say Hello to Heaven.

 There is no good time for bad news. Waking up to the knowledge that Chris Cornell has passed away leaves a hole in my stomach the size of the world. I saw Soundgarden live two weeks ago and that evening is a testament to not only a better time in music, but to a piece of my soul.

I often say that Pearl Jam brought me to the side of rock when I was a kid, and that’s true… the album Ten got through to me when I was listening to hip hop and tapped into the deepest of me to show me that although I may enjoy hip hop and other genres, rock defines me. But that’s a misleading bit of fact I’ve said for a long time… now that I sit here trying to process something that makes no sense, I realize that it was the track “Hunger Strike” that gave that first blow to finding myself through rock music.

It was late and I saw the video on MTV. I asked who this was and I learned about Eddie and his band first than I did Chris and his band, which I suspect was the case for many people… but I also learned about Temple of the Dog. When I was 12, the albums I listened to nonstop were Temple of the Dog and Ten. Temple of the Dog is a ten song album that started off as a tribute to Andrew Wood, lead singer of Mother Love Bone and has since become one of my favorite albums. It is beautiful and showcases a group of highly talented musicians performing emotional alchemy to create something as a tribute to their fallen friend.


“Cry, if you want to cry/If it helps you see/If it clears your eyes/Hate, if you want to hate/If it keeps you safe/If it makes you brave.” 
– My Wave.


Somehow, today every fan of Soundgarden, Temple of the Dog, and Chris Cornell have to find a way to do the same. That’s because music has a way of helping people bond like no other medium. With movies and literature, you have to pay attention to process your emotions and in large part, it is an individual experience. With music, you can break down as bad as your body can take and still turn the volume up to let the words and the music break through. With a song, you can sing it in chorus from the crowd and share profound moments of bliss as one stranger who can bond with other strangers to become musical friends thanks to words set to music. I mention Temple of the Dog because it was a side project that brought both Pearl Jam and Soundgarden to the forefront of rock. People cite Nevermind as a game changer album, and it very well was… but so was Temple of the Dog’s ST debut album.

Of course people know Black Hole Sun and why shouldn’t they? It’s a magnificent song. But if that’s the extent of your knowledge of Soundgarden, you’re missing out. You’re missing out big time.

While Nirvana managed to define a feeling, Pearl Jam allowed us to feel a wider range of emotions. Meanwhile, Soundgarden was putting out the loudest possible music, but doing it in a way unlike any other band from the 90’s since. People often say Soundgarden has a lot of Led Zeppelin in it, but that may be due to Chris’s vocals more than anything. Soundgarden was another beast altogether and that’s because Soundgarden is one of those bands that can be imitated but never equaled, where the sum of its parts are so much more than its individual components. Simply put, Soundgarden needs Kim, Ben, Matt, and Chris to happen. These are musicians who play with weird time signatures, weird tunings, weird song progressions, and never stopped pushing themselves. Nothing was intentional in how they played, it just happened… which makes it even more amazing.

After 1997’s Down on the Upside, Soundgarden broke up. It took 13 years for them to get back together and 15 to release a new album, and boy what an album King Animal was. These were late 40’s rockers taking musical chances and pushing each other to the limit, showing that not only did they enjoy playing together, they enjoyed elevating each other to the next level. Matt Cameron’s drumming in Pearl Jam may be amazing, but he shall forever be the drummer for Soundgarden. Both Kim Thayil and Ben Shephard are amazing musicians and Ben even released a solo album that is surprisingly beautiful, but they shall always be the guitarist and bassist for Soundgarden. Then there’s Chris, lead singer for Temple of the Dog (which is basically Pearl Jam with him in lead vocals), solo artist with several beautiful tracks released, but he shall always be the lead singer of Soundgarden.

People ask why Soundgarden wasn’t as big as Pearl Jam or Nirvana even though they were huge and the short answer is that their music wasn’t as immediately relatable or accessible as the other two bands. While Nirvana released Nevermind and Pearl Jam released Ten, Soundgarden released Badmotorfinger, one hell of an album that was to a large degree eclipsed by the other two. The music on it is heavy, obscure, and weird in the best possible way. Then they hit big with Superunknown which was also eclipsed to a certain degree by Kurt’s Death. But they never cared. Their focus was not fame. They were making music that they were proud of and that would endure. They were more focused on history rather than fame.

As a writer, I include the artists I love in all my work. It is my tribute to them and my thank you for all they’ve given to me in my life. In literary contests, I use a pseudonym to submit the work… it’s a name I’ve been using for over 20 years and something a lot of people might know as a bit of trivia for me. It includes the three singers that have had the deepest impact in my life.

Eddie James Cornell

Today I am forced to say goodbye to another piece of me and accept that the only guarantee in life is that we will die… and that this fact isn’t a good or bad thing, it’s just life. What we leave behind is up to us and the people that inspire us and that we inspire. Chris left a deep mark in me with his music, his lyrics, his vocals, and his legacy. I am torn to hear he has passed but I’m honored to have lived to witness this bit of history where he reached down and pulled the crowd up, where we were able to visit the Superunknown, and where a Black Hole Sun is not the end of the world, but a beautiful thing that shines from within us all who dare to dream and dare to be ourselves to the end. 


Peace, love, and maki rolls.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

The Mother's Day Tradition Continues with Roulette of Rhymes

For the last four years, I have been able to maintain a Mother's Day tradition of releasing a book on Mother's Day. Until I began writing this post I thought it was the last 3 years, but then I noticed that I released Between the Tides also on Mother's Day. So that's 4 in a row and I'm happy to announce that the tradition continues this year with Roulette of Rhymes.

To me, Mother's Day is every day but I do my best to celebrate every Mother's Day by publishing and releasing a book as a tribute to all the moms.

The first year of my writing career, it was Between the Tides, in 2015 it was the Daydreams on the Sherbet Shore.

Last year I published my first fully Spanish work in Pensando en Metáforas.

Each of this works is special for its own right and I release them on this day because if we can celebrate national pancake day, we best celebrate Mother's Day BIG time.

It's no secret I love my mom and it shall never be a secret because I've learned that showing our love and emotions is a good thing. Letting other people know how much and why you love someone is also a good thing.

My mom is my inspiration for so many things and her example has always inspired me. She always keeps going forwards and always wears that beautiful smile of hers. She makes me proud beyond measure and I shall always release a book on this day to show how much she means to me and that my love for her is embedded in my heart in my DNA, and in my work.

Te amo, Mama.

Let's see what new surprises we'll have for next year. +

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Puerto Rico: Governed to Death

Several people have asked what the hell is happening in Puerto Rico and with good reason. When you’re labeled the Greece of the Caribbean, that tends to raise flags and bring some questions. The answer is as complicated as it is unfortunate. By the way, this post is a matter of opinion although since I’m not fond of any political party, it should be a little less biased than what most news outlets report or so I hope. Also, I’m writing this in English because the people who have asked me aren’t from Puerto Rico and seeing the “brilliant” reporting being done on both sides of the pond, I’d rather offer a Puerto Rican’s perspective of what’s going on in the Island… a Puerto Rican that left the Island in search of opportunity and a better life, mind you.

Before anything else, the situation in Puerto Rico has various sides to it. This should be obvious but needs to be stated to not see it as ONE situation but SEVERAL.

Firstly, what is the Fiscal Board, why was it implemented, and what does that mean for Puerto Rico?

The fiscal board is an oversight committee assigned to the Commonwealth of Puerto Rico. If you’re not familiar with the term Commonwealth, not to worry, you are not alone, and that’s because it is a gray area in terms of territory terminology. In essence, PR is a US territory governed by both US federal laws and local regulations and statutes. In layman’s terms it should be more than a colony and less than a state in terms of rights and responsibilities. The Fiscal Board was implemented because for several years Puerto Rico has been writing checks it cannot cash and has a huge problem of Fraud, Waste, and Abuse across all government agencies from the looks of it in addition to several other problems. Among those other problems are vulture funds that are benefitting from loopholes, tax cuts, and other bureaucratic resources to make money off of Puerto Rico while shafting local investors and gutting the local economy. One example would be of companies making a killing would be Wal-Mart. They make a lot of money in Puerto Rico. When you have low cost everything on an Island that has a high poverty rate, that means sales. But it also means that all that money does NOT stay in Puerto Rico. The only money that stays in the Puerto Rican economy are the meager salaries workers earn from a company notorious for short changing its personnel. As for examples of fraud, development contracts, and advisor roles are the norm.

What other problems does the local economy have? Well local investors and people with Puerto Rican bonds are not the priority of people who will be paid in this debt and will more than likely not see their earnings or their money. That honor goes to foreign investors, mainly from the US but from several other places in the world. The board is supposed to ensure that everyone gets paid and that funds aren’t squandered or misused but unfortunately, it’s very possible that the board could do little to remedy this. Moreover, a lot of people speculate that the people assigned are part of those who are benefitting from the Island being gutted financially.

I’ve been asked whether I think the fiscal board is a good idea and that’s quite the loaded question. This is because the term “good idea” doesn’t apply. In theory, a fiscal board should help the situation in Puerto Rico, but the way it’s being implemented will not benefit the country and only benefit people in power. Some members of the board are questionable and there do appear to be several conflicts of interest. The fact of the matter remains; everyone wants a slice of the pie no matter how many people get affected.

So in summary, a lot of people think that the Fiscal Board is bad but they fail to admit that part of the problem are the political parties in charge, which are directly responsible for the exodus of the middle class, because we continue to shoulder the tax burden while rich people keep getting breaks. Also, there seems a desire to deny any accountability for the Fiscal Board being implemented. Simply put, bad decision after bad decision and corrupt administration after corrupt administration opened the door to this Fiscal Board. In short, what is happening in Puerto Rico is what the top 2% would want to happen in all the US but have a bit more loopholes to jump through stateside. Meanwhile in Puerto Rico, it’s basically a free for all.

Ok, so what instances of waste occur? From lavish offices, to tax funded trips, to about 8-12 consultants/advisors per politician is a start. I’m not talking about qualified people, I’m talking about sub-par record producers (Glen Monroig) and sub-par socialites (Andrea De Castro Font, daughter of a convicted corrupt politician). Add to this that there are 78 municipalities on the Island and each with its own budget and you see that this might or might not contribute to the problem. Personally, I think consolidating municipalities might help, but I’ve heard from numerous people that have told me that it wouldn’t fix much if anything at all.

Other instances of waste are in the assignment of lush salaries to people who haven’t done much. Lisa Donahue is the person with the highest profile that has benefitted from a juicy salary that has not yielded many if any results. In regards to this, a lot of people have said that the matter is more complicated than that and that the multimillion dollar salary was used to pay for a group of people. I still fail to see the sense in the assignment of so much money, especially since the results of “studies” and “evaluations” have not geared Puerto Rico to resolve its oil dependency or a fractured infrastructure. Last year there was a major outage on the Island and for several days, there was no power. When I lived in PR, the power would go out at least 3 times a week and that’s on a GOOD week. Since I left the power outages have become more common and there is also speculation that these power outages are a cheap way to save money by the Electric Energy Authority (AEE). Is there evidence of this? No. But a lot of things seem rather convenient. What this means is that Puerto Rico is almost 100% dependent on foreign oil. Oil that is sold at a mark-up, which is the case with everything on the Island. With an 11% tax, you’d think that’s pretty bad, but you’re forgetting that there’s also an import tariff placed on all imports, which account for 95% of what the Island consumes. So it’s not 11% it’s way higher. Oh and did I mention that the Water Company is run by the government and also shows signs of corruption, shady operations (filtering waste to supply “potable” water to certain communities), and a fractured infrastructure. Two years ago there was a massive drought and water rationing occurred. This means you had water one day and no water three days. Reservoirs are not being maintained and sedimentation levels hover between 30-40% and in some instances over 60%. This means that reservoirs are FAR From operating at maximum capacity.

So let’s summarize, corrupt government, oversight board implemented that may favor foreign investors versus local investors, lavish salaries given to foreign functionaries that don’t seem to be yielding results, a compromised infrastructure, and almost complete dependency on imports. And unfortunately there is still more.

Going back to imports and exports, please note that Puerto Rico is forced to import US products or US approved products because of a trade agreement (please understand imposed trade agreement). The same goes for exportation, which limits the Island in its ability to evolve business opportunities. Seeing all of this, obviously Puerto Rico should pay less Social Security and Medicare taxes, right? Wrong. Puerto Rico pays the same taxes as stateside and receives less than half the benefits and is subject to harsher cutting of budgets for Medicare and Medicaid plans. By the way, the same happens stateside, Louisiana and Mississippi are two examples of states that get less benefits and endure harsher cuts than other states and I’m sure there’s some perfectly long and complex way of justifying something that feels wrong. I’m not saying it is wrong for one simple reason, I want to be spared the long explanation that justifies a system that is designed to shaft economies and populations in need.

Add to this that due to the bi-partisan nature of the Puerto Rican government, there are a lot of stalemates and a lot of things don’t get done but still cost tax payers millions of dollars. (Sound familiar yet?)

Ok, so why did people call for a National Strike on Monday May 1st? Again, several answers. Firstly, one of the proposed budget cuts focuses on the University of Puerto Rico, a public education system. They say the program needs to take several cuts and a lot of people are opposed to it. Tuition is affordable and it represents one of the longest standing institutions on the Island. Does this mean it’s perfect? Not at all. There’s a huge problem with assignment of funds and the overall administration of the entire system. I don’t know the details but I do know it’s been a topic that’s been a thorn in the side of countless governors and university administrations. Due to all the protests and problems the UPR has had, it has lost its accreditation and Pell Grants will be cut most likely in their entirety. In general, the Department of Education has been riddled with scandals, fraud, and corruption to the point where it’s a miracle it’s still standing.

Add to this that the Government Development Bank of Puerto Rico (Banco Gubernamental de Fomento, BGF) is bankrupt and you see how much the problem extends. Oh, might I add that the BGF, the AEE, and pretty much all major agencies have offered bonuses to functionaries that they have fired and you see that the shade spreads far and wide. Oh and this Monday the PROMESA act and several things proposed within this act expired, so naturally the government of Puerto Rico got sued.

So in short, the Island country of Puerto Rico is in debt for several billion dollars and people seem to want to audit the debt to see how much is really owed, to whom it is owed, and why it is owed. That’s the general feeling of why people want the audit with the hope that a lot of rats will be cast out in the open… but still the debt remains. Meanwhile, foreign investors, vulture funds, and government personnel are trying to see what is left of the pie to split amongst themselves, even at this point. Think of it as a huge fire sale.

What other problems are there? Well since Puerto Rico is a Commonwealth and not a state, we don’t have the luxury of getting the break say Detroit got to file for bankruptcy and restructure its debt. Stateside, several people have said that Puerto Rico shouldn’t be bailed out because it’s the Island’s problems and that it’s not the US’s responsibility. To put it short, that’s a very oversimplified response to a very complicated situation that has come about precisely due to laws, regulations, loopholes, and shady negotiations on both sides of the pond. What it means yet again is that another US territory only seems to be good to provide music, sports stars, and cannon fodder for the armed forces. If that seems like a harsh assessment, by all means check out the history of the 65th infantry for just one example. People stateside don’t like to hear it, but the fact remains, Puerto Rico has been taken advantage of in more ways than anyone wants to admit, which is the same as American Samoa, Guam, and other territories. We are seen and often treated as property and a means to save businesses (somehow we’re #1 or near the top spot in sales for Krispy Kreme, Macy’, JC Penney’s, Maggy Moo’s, Burger King, Costco, and beyond). A new Labor Reform was passed without flinching which would cut people’s vacation/sick days and probably salaries. Yet we keep hearing a lot of people say “not my problem”, including a lot of people that are going to the bank to deposit the cash they’ve gotten from deals in PR.

I am by no means an expert of any of these topics and I’m reacting based on what I see on the news and my perception. Both major parties on the Island have also played huge roles in the disaster we see nowadays. But a lot of this was due to oversight in the sense of omission or a blunder. Now a Fiscal Board has been implemented and the results will speak for themselves.

Last year, I decided to leave the Island in search for more opportunities as an author, in search for a better quality of life, and because I saw a glimpse of having my hours cut. For the most part I don’t vote for major parties in local elections because I’ve seen how inefficient they are and this applies to both major parties. Red is not better than blue and blue is not better than red (sound familiar yet?).

Yesterday there was a national strike, it was mostly peaceful. But there were outbreaks of violence and destruction. Who was responsible is up for debate but a lot of things smell fishy in the situation and that’s all I’ll say about that because we don’t know for sure. But what still seems to be the case is that the local government would rather carry out a referendum that will not solve anything rather than accept an audit to this debt. There is a lot of pushback in regards to doing the audit and my only question is: why?

For my part, I don’t know. All I know is that Puerto Rico needs help and that people in power are only focused on helping themselves and having seconds.

I write this as a Puerto Rican trying to shed light on the current situation. I have no interests with either party and I may in fact be completely wrong about a couple of things. But I’m not writing this to win any argument or be right. I’m writing this in the interest of impartial information from an individual that loves his country but questions the methods and intentions of people that would rather make a profit and keep a country down than allow an amazing Island to show that though we may be small in size, we are big in heart, and just need the means to develop the amazing potential of a paradise with worldwide potential.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Biggest lesson from the World Baseball Classic

If you are Puerto Rican, today isn’t necessarily the greatest day for you. That’s because last night we lost in the World Baseball Classic against the US. Although I’ve already written about this in Spanish, there are some more things I’d like to say and in English to offer a bit more perspective to people all around the world.

One of the things that identifies Puerto Ricans is being loud and proud. A lot of people ask me why are Puerto Ricans so in your face about where they’re from and I can guess a couple of reasons. First off, we’re a tiny Island in the Caribbean, which means a lot of people, and I mean a LOT of people not only don’t know where we’re from, but write us off. Some people do so because they don’t know who or where we’re from, but in regards to some people from the states, the reality is a little harsher.

Seeing the reactions after the first game between Puerto Rico and the US, the sentiment is clear:

We are owned by the US and shouldn’t even be representing Puerto Rico

We should show more respect because after all, we are a US territory

If it weren’t for the US, Puerto Rico would be nothing but a rock in the Caribbean

And so on. You get the gist.

So that’s why losing last night hurt twice as much. For the US, it’s another trophy for an already crowded mantel. It’s bragging rights. It’s the way it "should" be, even if the game really didn’t matter much to them in comparison (it mattered but for different reasons).

For Puerto Rico, it was a game that brought the country together, that gave the Island some dearly needed good news and even hope, it put us on the world stage once again, even if we’re small. For a few days, people celebrated, chanted, did silly things like dye their hair blonde, and we were having a good time, something we’re well known for but also something that’s kind of been lost during the last couple of years.

But in hindsight, it also showed clearly what identifies Puerto Rico versus the US.

The US thrives on determination, grit, anger, and even revenge. They're tough and they hated losing to Puerto Rico and had a chip on their shoulder. Their star pitcher was given grief because he’s from Puerto Rican descent and still played for the US, a decision that we should all respect, as well as his skills and an amazing game he pitched  last night. There were celebrations organized for the Puerto Rico team and the US used that as fuel for their fire… they were angry, they felt disrespected, and that’s what fueled their win.

On the other hand, Puerto Rico played great in the tournament and were the team to watch because they were having the time of their lives and having fun. Every single game they brought that carefree attitude, they came out with the W. That’s because Puerto Ricans excel when they are happy. It’s not to say we can’t overcome, or we can’t dig deep when things are bad. We can, it’s just that when joy is the game, no one can beat us. By all means, check out the highlights for all the teams and then check Puerto Rico’s. The energy, the joy, the excitement they brought was something else and they played fun. Last night, I didn't feel that joy and I'm sure a lot of other people didn't as well.

Which is the point. Puerto Ricans by excellence excel when they are happy and for some time now, the Island has lost its spark a bit. This team rekindled that joyous fire and definitely served as a wonderful reminder to all Puerto Ricans and the world at large: joy can bring people together, can lower crime, can make you dance and smile, and we need more joy in the world.

So ask yourself, what have you done lately to bring joy to the world? Or is it that you’re just focused on winning the game?

#WinningIsntEverything #ProudOfOurTeam #StillChampions #TeamRubio




Peace, love, and maki rolls